04.04.13 --- Bitter Sweet...

Just trying to understand
How to better myself and be a man
Trying to change myself for you
The one that brings me up yet makes me feel so blue
The love of my life the woman of my dreams
Used to tell me we'd be together forever never thought you'd switch teams
Wishy washy bi polar disorder
Doesn't she see how hard I've fought for her
Saying I'm the only one for her yet going down the list on why I'm not right
Used to be next to me by my side now far out in the horizon almost out of sight
How do I close the distance in between us to get things to a better place?
How you used to touch me and tell me sweet things passionate lovemaking at a fast pace
Am I really that messed up as a person or is it on both ends?
She wants to do anything she wants no consequences breaking up but wants to remain friends?
How can you be with another when the one who you know has your heart is here waiting
For you to come back for you to realize It should be more simple without all this hating
Destruction of a one in a life time love when will you see what you need is right here
I told you I want you to have my seed and have my hand in marriage now all I have are these tears
Standing outside on the balcony looking at the water view raining pouring down
When we get together it's like how things were before but once I leave I always end up with a frown
You never want to talk never want to see me but once I'm there its ily's and say you'll never leave me
Why are you messing with my head baby why is this love so bitter sweet?
These are the questions and memories that spiral in my head once I'm leaving you going down the street----

03.11.12 --- Long Gone...

Im right here standing looking for you
Yet your miles away though your laying right next to me
Your mouth says you love me yet the words hold emptiness
I don't know about us anymore
And I don't know what to do
The thing about the facts is that you're no longer with me
Physically you're here but ur mind and heart is somewhere else
Somebody help me somebody show me
How to restore our love and the hole in her heart
Am I enough? Together can we overcome?
Or am I just holding on to false hope?
Long gone and inside I'm raging
Where did I go wrong? Were there any signs?
Everything was looking up and out of nowhere it all went down
How is it a day with you is just another day?
Is it okay to feel this way, If I say I love you You say it right back
But I don't believe I don't feel anything towards you
Words are just words no actions your body language says otherwise
I forgot how to love you, I forgot how to touch you
Everybody looking from the outside in Why are they in our business?
Shaking my head looking side to side but no ones here to be by my side
Ugh Just got to move on.. "I used to love you
You used to love me babe, But now it just feels strange in your heart"-----

( "" = The Dream - Long Gone)

02.15.12 --- Mind of the Generation...

You see the little girl just 16 of age
You're 25 and you're going to make a pass
Not keeping in mind that this is someones daughter
Someones future mother, someones heart
No you're doing it for your own devious plans
Tainted meets innocence and you want to rob her of it
She's too young to understand the games youre playing with her mind
She thinks you love her that youll always be there for her
Not knowing you only want her to satisfy your hunger your body your flesh
Calling her baby yet talking smack behind her back
You use her to fill any holes you have within yourself
Look into her eyes when she cries when she finally realizes
Heartbroken and abused at your mercy
As her elder she stood next to you looked up to you
To protect her to guide her yet you led her astray
16 and pregnant now and you're nowhere to be found
She thinks everything over and over everything you said
Lies deception shes destroyed
She looks out the window unwilling not ready for her responsibilities in hand
The razor touches her wrist and a single tear rolls down her cheek
Blood drips on the floor trickling down her fingers
Why little boy no man in my eyes Did you let her down?