11.29.09 --- Banishment of Happiness

like its all right here..
consuming me into this hole...
cant let go cant break free,
screaming but no one hears my screams,
dark and alone im here in this world,
unable to reach out i reach and my hand meets darkness-
its enveloping consuming like it always does,
eyes widened frightened, no not this again-
once again im forced to live the events of my past