11.29.09 --- Banishment of Happiness

like its all right here..
consuming me into this hole...
cant let go cant break free,
screaming but no one hears my screams,
dark and alone im here in this world,
unable to reach out i reach and my hand meets darkness-
its enveloping consuming like it always does,
eyes widened frightened, no not this again-
once again im forced to live the events of my past

11.19.09 --- A Moment Of Silence

Sitting here alone thoughts running through my mind
Random thoughts like how people play me after I've remained kind
How they take so much from me they simply use me
Don't know what they're doing but all they do is abuse me
Now in the moment of silence thinking of all the letters I've read
From girls i've been with, girls that have laid in my bed
How they seemed so true at first but ended up being a lie
Me retarded believing them then in the end act surprised
I wish I knew back then what I know now
Then maybe I wouldn't be walking around with my head down
Now in this moment of silence I'm here thinking about the past
Past relationships that I knew seemed to true to last
So many I'm sorrys. babys. and I love yous
But I know now they werent worth it, I have nothing to lose
If I had the relationship I have now back then I would be good
To wish things to be better you know I wish it could
Now in this moment of silence I'm grateful for what I have
To have my baby, friends, family, and my dad
This goes out to you who changed my life around
No longer will you see on this face a frown
Thank you for all the words that you've said
Especially the freaky conversations we both shared in the bed
Love me for who I am not what I've done remember those words
I'll always remain faithful and true fuck what you heard
This is a moment of silence to remember, I love you so
remember everything we do and have done is on the low---

11.16.09 --- Litos Passion...

Trying to pull her as close to his heart as possible
He knows he messed up- for her love he was responsible
Passion: a word of love and beauty such as what he sees in her eyes
Passion: something lifelong so he hopes this never dies
Lito: who was there trying to give her his all
Lito: who wasn't the only one to be let down and fall
Feelings growing strong they should stay together forever
To hurt her again he knows that he will never
His emotions flow as easily as his fingers slowly caressing her thighs
How will they find each other? In their hearts there it lies
Sharing intimate nights laying in the bed
Now they are just memories twirling around in his head
Passion is beauty enough words said
How he lost her maybe he should have chose another path instead
Looking in her eyes being held in her arms is where he belongs
Now he's up all night listening to these sad love songs
He looks for the day when they are together again
But for now he will settle for being only a friend
Closing his eyes he pictures tocuhing her beautiful face
He did anything and everything putting it all into place
Gave her love support affection
she chose him and only him no more from the selection
He misses her and she misses him
It's a frantic struggle for her love he wants to win
Age makes it harder for he is four years her elder
Yet he's grateful that no harm as befell her
Three years to go he sits patiently and waits
Hoping in the end it doesn't result in heartbreak
She keeps him going she keeps him running
Building a better future for the two of them is what he's gunning
for- so everything is perfect have nothing around to strain
She is a part of him he feels her pulsing through his veins
Falling in love is simple but for him it's complex
Yet she got him going crazy putting his love to the test
He shall never lie he shall never do her wrong
She shall never harm him her emotions are so strong
Too many factors trying to pull them apart
But he shall never give up this feels right in his heart
All the stress on his chest is lifted whenever she comes into sight
And when they're together them darkened days look bright
She is his sunshine after the rain
Everytime they kiss she takes away his pain
She is Litos Passion there will never be another
His happiness, Her heart they know they will always have each other---

11.14.09 --- The Distance In Between...

Been awhile now and you're still first on my top
Never lied when I said from that spot you’ll never drop
You might be over there and me over here
Though yo can’t hear me verbally I'll still type things you'd like to hear
How I dream of your smile how I dream for your kiss
That one night heading into eternal bliss
Staring at your picture hoping them dreams come true
Looking up at the sky which is cloudless and blue
Thinking of a world where we can be together
All the time in the world getting to be with you forever
I’m here alone still single holding on
'Cause talking to you seriously got me thinking you the one
When you seemed to up and disappear it seemed like a tragedy
Reality set in like it won’t be the way it seemed to be
I’m here holding it down till the day you return
Waiting for that message that says hey Hun oh how I yearn
Like please don’t make her be here for just the moment
Emotions deep inside how I still need to hone it
The distance in between might be far but I am a hard nut to crack
Don’t give up that easily I'll never throw you to the back
I’m here for you as I hope you’re here for me
Maybe if I would have met you sooner then you’ll see
That this distance doesn’t matter
If I could everything you need I'll toss to you on the platter
Here you go now just be with me at least till the end of the day
I’m real with you I'm true with you don’t care what people have to say
Despite the distance i'm still here
With you in the picture I told all them other girls to stay clear—

11.13.09 --- The "Ok" Girl...

Checking her emails everyday you know she holding her own
It was only once I heard her voice over the phone
Independent yet shy I’m tryna figure out what shes all about
Sexy smart just want to whisper in her ear I can turn her out
Soft smooth legs that goes with her elegant skin
I wonder if her love I’ll ever win
Since that first day she came into my life
It seems easier now no more hardship or stife
Distance spaces us apart
But I want her to know she’ll always be in my heart
Beautiful eyes with the body of a dancer
All I want to say is I want to romance her
She fresh out of a relationship I’ve been single for a while
When we finally chill I want to make her laugh and smile
Last night she was the last one on my mind
She seems like someone’s whose original real one whose one of a kind
I must admit I get confused with the way she says ok
Me and her looking into each others eyes in her bed is where I want to lay
I want to see her happy never see her a wreck
I got one shot only cause love wont resurrect
It’s her mind her body her love I wanna condone
I just want her to know as long as I’m around she’ll never be alone----

The Crying Of The Heart...

Too many times you lied
Too many times we both have cried
A year and some time and still you remain the same
Identical eyes, figure, voice, and name
I’m trying to move forward you behind 4 steps
You lied you cheated I won’t even mention the rest
Why must you tell me these fake stories
Why don’t you fess up and say what you haven’t told me
When I’m with you everything seems perfect just us two
But yet in the mist this guy pops up out the blue?
I told you, you can tell me anything so why must you hide
How can you continue living brushing these lies to the side
You’re much more then this can’t you see
How amazing it is when it’s just you and me?
I feel pain in my chest no it’s starting all over again
Telling me that this guy is simply just a friend
Lies deceit I can see in between the line
Yet I cherish the moments when you were only mine
Crying on the inside you’re as heartless as can be
I got to move on I got to look out for me
I have love for you but I guess you don’t care
Treating me bad don’t you see it’s not fair
The only one that’s always there for you
But when you in the streets you like Lito Who?
Like I didn’t give you my all
Every single time I attempted to climb you let me fall
I’m reaching out Mamii but you toss my hand right back
I try anything and everything what is it that I lack?
Maybe you just don’t want to be helped say it isn’t so
That the last opportunity you have at something good you letting it go?
Running these streets laid up in someone elses bed
You can’t be serious forgetting everything we both said
How you want to do better and have something real
Well its right in front of you, you should already know the deal
You say I’m good so why give in return bad?
Knowing damn well I was there comforting you whenever you were sad
What keeps me with you? Is it the times when we’re alone?
When our love for each other is clearly shown
Or maybe it’s all an act I don’t know anymore
My only hopes are that you have changed from before
A little maturity about the situation at hand
You are unique not just some common brand
Common street walker with no destination no that’s not you
You deserve better a family a house with a sunset view
I see you now walking with one leg barely able to stand on your own
Was it a lie when you said you wanted to see me over the phone?
You can bring the horse to the well but can’t make him drink
I’m saying now don’t come to me when your life starts to sink
When you have nowhere to go and wondering what went wrong
Thinking how you did me bad and you knew it all along
Maybe my love just isn’t enough
But we always stayed together when a push turned to shove
Ups and downs are clear on the horizon
But if you’re willing I see both of us shining
Getting lost in our own little world together
But right now I don’t see us together forever
Get your mind right and I’m saying it out of kindness
I see right through you now I’m cured of this blindness
That gave you the benefit of the doubt before
But I put my foot down when I say not no more
Never shall I stand and watch you drag my bloody heart over the floor
If you going to continue playing this game don’t come knocking at my door
I Love you girl is there no more time for change left?
I wish I could make you see even if it costs me my last breath
I want to give you everything some fine wine and dining
And when we get in the bed you know we both be flying
You are the keeper of my heart
And right now you kind of tearing it apart
Squeezing every emotion out of me
You’re the blind one now because you act like you don’t see
I know it’s always nice to have someone to hold
And now I’m here standing talking so proudly and bold
When I say I cherish every good moment we had
I want to forget all about the past the lies the bad
I want to know us right here and now leave everything else behind
Starting with this end with some words so kind
Throughout this time you have become a part of me
Don’t want you to go I’ll surely die if you leave
No one compares to you
Every other dime is scrap compared to you
These emotions we share this is something devine
It must mean something we still here after all this time
Open up your eyes and see clear
That with me you have nothing to fear
Nothing to lose only to gain
Happiness and pleasure you shall know no pain
So I shall ask are you willing to make it work me and you?
Ill end this with I’ll always be here and I’ll always love you…

11.12.09 --- Candle Light...

The flicker of the flame, the glow fills the room
Only thought on my mind is how I long to hold you
Missing you even thought I know you're near
Wishing you could be here with me for me to see you smile
You're beautiful to me don't let anyone tell you otherwise
After so long you're with me again maybe this was meant to be
Always want to see you happy, happy that you're with me
Embrace me, hold me so very dear
I want to experience your love let down your walls
How you love it when i touch your sides glowing in the candle light
Me on top of you, looking into your eyes
Wondering if one day you'll love me unconditionally
Laying in my bed...time passing by
Me going down always holding a surprise
Feeling the warmth of your body like the warmth of the flame
Caressing oh so gently this is something sensual
Do I treat you good? Do I touch you like a Queen?
This emotion I feel is so strong and divine
I never want the night to pass when our bodies entwine
Life goes on, continue it now with me
I'm going to love you one day you'll see
Give me the key to your heart, to want to be let in
I'll fight for your love just like the flame fights to stay lit
My feelings give in you make me feel so good
I take you higher, higher then your seat upon your throne
I have to be careful, still have my feelings to hone
Out of anyone and everyone you chose me
I'm here being real, I'm not here to decieve
Me and you again did you think we'd ever be?
Waiting for the day that you can say you love me----

Lonely Nights...

Just A Lonely Writer Writing On This Lonely Night

Wishing For That One Girl To Just Come Into Sight

That One Girl Who'll Give Her All And Him As Well

To Make It Feel Like A Glimpse Of Heaven In This Living Black Hell

Scared Of eing Hurt He's Been Hurt Too Many times Before

Movies, Books, And Hope Have Him Wondering Whats In Store

Is This Thing Called Love Really True?

Or Is It Just Emotions Created, In The End Just To Fool You?

His Idea Of A Relationship Is Broken, Too Much Bad

Thinking About How It'll Feel, That One Thing He Never Had

Now All He Does Is Write On These Lonely Nights

About The Possiblity Of Him Overcoming His Frights

About Him Never Having A Lover, Romancer Or Friend

All He Can Hope For Is For These Nights To Simply End

Maybe...If Only He Had Someone To Hold

Then Maybe A Happier Life Upon Him Will Be Bestowed

Value His Words They Stand Strong And True

Read This Poem carefully Now, It Might Relate To You---

11.11.09 --- More Than... ( Dedication)

On this day of rain

Just thinking about you...
Thinking about the ways that I'd love to just...
Hold you here in my arms, kiss your lips and your neck
I'd love you with my all- don't take it for granted
Now at this point in time- it's more than my feelings
More than my love- more than my thoughts about you
Cause now i have you in my life
Day by day everything seems clearer before my eyes
In a crowd of people I see you above all else
You're so amazing, someone I never knew could exist
I want, I need, I pray for it to be just you and me
I was looking for someone better- took me less time than i thought
I send my love to you through my words
But my words can't truly express how i feel
I can only go so in depth with my words
It'll take more than letters that form words
More than just seeing each other...
Maybe i could explain by the way i touch you
Touch your sides, caress your thighs- to your stomach
Maybe than you can understand
Let my lips guide me to where i want to be
Uncharted lands across your body- waiting to be discovered
Can i go there? Can i make you feel things you never felt before?
Love in its purest form, just a simple hug isn't enough
All this emotion building up inside of me
Even in my dreams...there you lay
With your smile, your overwhelming aurora
Maybe one day you can say I love you
Missing every second I'm not with you
Wondering if you're thinking about me or dreaming about me
When I was good as dead you gave me life
I thank you for that, for showing me there's still something to live for
More than a feeling, more than an emotion, more than lust
More than me, it's now me and you
The depth of my words... how far do they go?
Don't you see how strong they are?
Spending hours in bed, talking bout anything and everything
Good times i have enjoyed with you
I'll be here waiting, waiting for you to come to me
You mean so much to me and my life, the things I'll do for you
Remember me always, remember my words
I want the best for you... Be With Me----

Pl3a$ur3 Tr!p

From The Very Beginning You Get This Feeling
That Got You Feeling So High And Light
Got You Dreaming Of A Landscape Such A Wonderful Sight
You Never Want To Leave Never Want To Come Back Down
Tongue Traveling Across Uncharted Lands From The Sky To The Ground
Pleasure In Its Purest Form Yes I’ll Take You There
Caressing Your Body From Your Legs To Your Hair
Going To Lick The Mountain Tips No It Won’t Sting
From The Tip To The Area Around The Naval Ring
Going Down Further To A Land Of Sweet Desire
Emotion Flowing Through Your Veins As If It Were A Fire
You Feeling It Coming As My Tongue Touches The Pink Peak
Rolling In Circles Got You Feeling So Weak
From The Peak Flying Off Yes We’re Going Airborne
I’m Going To Settle The Fire From Your Womans’ Scorn
I Got You Feeling Amazing As If You Have Been Lifted
All This From My Tongue Yes I‘ve Truly Been Gifted
Pleasure From Me Giving Unto You
So Innocent And Pure I Know You’ll See It Through
Pleasure Trip Is Over Time To Come Back Down
Don’t Be Upset There’s Always Another Time Around---

11.10.09 --- What Should You Do?

What Should You Do When There's No One To Love You? And If So...

What Should You Do When The One You Love Hurts You?

What Should You Do When Your Life Means Nothing? But...

What Should You Do If Loving Someone Means Something?

It's Time To Make A Decision Which Road Do You Take?

And I Know It's Hard When The One You Love Is At Stake.

Now You're Stuck InBetween Two Roads And Don't Know Where To Go,

And You Can't Ask For Advice Cause Your Lover's The Only One You Know.

One Road Is The Path Of Knowledge One That Is Safe;

The Other One Consists Of Pain Love Yet Hate.

The First One Is Easy But You Know That Isn't Your Style,

And Even Though The Other One Is Rough At Least It Makes You Smile.

So Now As Your Thoughts Are Coming To An End,

Would You Rather Want A Lover Or Would You Have A Friend?

Take A Second To Think This Through Does This Lover Really Matter That Much To You?

If She Does Then You Know What To Do

Just Remember That In The End It All Comes Down To You.

What Should You Do When The One You Love Dies? And If Not...

What Should You Do When The One You Love Cries?

What Should You Do When The One You Trust Lies? Y Tambien...

What Should You Do When The One You're With Denies?

When The One You Love Hides Behind Their Mistakes

Seems To Be So True But Turns Out To Be A Fake.

Exactly How Much Of Your Heart Are You Willing To Break?

How Much Bulls**t Are You Willing To Take?

Is She Real Is She True Does She Express Her Feelings To You?

Or Does She Lie And Deny Every Single Crime That Stops By?

Got To Be Ready To Get Up And Get Out You Know You'll Make It Through

Look Deep Inside Yourself And Find What's Best For You.

If It Isn't Going To Work And You're Hurt Let Your Feelings Show;

Pack Your Bags There's The Door You Never Know What's Going To Be In Store---

11.09.09 --- Sadness

I'm on the verge on the brink
I try to clear my mind but I cant think
Mass confusion surrounds me
A dark shadow has befallen me
Feeling like im alone yet I got all these females around me
People smile think its all good but they don’t see the real me
I try to stand tall yet all I seem to do is crumble and fall
Its like in the end its like theres no one here for me at all
I got girls on the side but they cant satisfy my thirst
My craving to be loved but that’s not the worst
Falling deeper and deeper into this hole
Sadness tears thru my mind body and soul
Is it so much to ask to have sumone to hold
Everyone I want their love is already sold
Given to another
Will I ever feel what couples experience with each other?
Im afraid to love afraid to care
To tear down my walls do I dare?
Always a fairy tale beginning but we all know how it ends
Heart break too strong where we can never even be friends
Sweet misery is what I feel they seem so good yet they bad
Always try to make them into the thing I never had
Lying here on my bed wondering if my dream will come true
Waiting for that right one to just pop up out the blue
Devastating tragedy
Look at what has become of me
Darkened tainted from my past
I maybe happy for awhile but it never seems to last
So I often wonder if ill ever find true love
Wondering if ill ever find that one
The one to grow old with the one who’ll have my son
The one who completes me and makes my eyes see brighter days
But that dream is quickly fading away
So here in this bed under these sheets I shall lay
Tears fallin on my pillow I know its sad to say
I think im not strong enough but I guess ill never know
Away from all these fake people I want to pack up and go
These females lust for me but forget it my heart beats slow
They don’t want my love just what I have to offer down below
Lost and confused in this cold cruel environment
Too many writings I wrote too many love offers I’ve sent
Crying on the inside smiling on the outside
Playing with females now but I stay loyal and true on the flipside
Right now its What ever happens happens I simply don’t care
Cuz the heartache the pain is too much to bear…

11.06.09

Hello, this is Lito! Enjoy My Blogs: These Are Poetry Pieces I've Written Since 2008, More New And Revised Pieces So Read And Experience Some Of The Dilemmas And Situations Ive Been Dealt- Bye For Now