09.13.12 --- Self-Dilemma...

When ex girlfriends come back around and you suddenly start to miss them
Then the more you chill the more you realize why it never worked out with them
Will things be different this time around or will they stay the same?
But damn it sounded so good the way they said my name
The way T loved to go down the way E knew how to ride
But I have a good woman at home so these feelings I have to hide
No one can compare to the things she does for me
Kisses unreal sex game unmatched so why is it hard for me to see --
that there should be no other female on my mind
Knowing damn well I belong to her and she'll forever be mine
But shit these memories are crazy as they all come flooding back
I have to keep it together can't break can't crack
After all it all comes down to sex
I'll admit I miss it in every aspect
From delicate kisses to slight touching
From gentle licks to heavy thrusting
Hair pulling having there backs arching
Sweet wet pussies taking all neccessary precautions
Lubing them up dicking them down
How me and T did it everywhere we were all around
Not caring who saw or where we did it
To the crazy times like when A accidently bit it
One I'd rather forget, the life of a sex fien
So many faces so many names, seems like a dream
Snap back Angel They all had their turn
Stay true to your girl these others will just have to let it burn
They can never love you or satisfy you the way she can
For you to fuck it up its not part of the plan
Think about the future think what it holds
But the futures never certain it can never be foretold
Angel don't lose it, it's just an illusion of the enemy
I know it'll feel so good those things they'll do to me
Think of the struggle to get you to where you are now, they're in the past
for a reason keep it moving keep it pushing
You're right cause in the end they'll be gone and my girl I'll end up losing
Exactly so stay clear minded stay true
Don't give a fuck what they say to you
Because with my girl by my side I can never go wrong
While with them others it's the same old sad song
Man you're right what am I doing I'm heading home where  I should be
No problem anytime remember thats your future wife to be-----

07.22.12 --- She Don't Know...

Here we go panties dropping, booty popping
Moans escaping fast pacing
Back breaking soul shaking
She don't know the type of love we'll be making
Let me see that skin temble whenever I come closer
Baby I'm a tell you now My dick throbs harder whenever I hold ya
Let me see you lick your lips
As i look up at you while im sucking that clit
Body spasms uncontrol as you cum all from the tip of my tongue
Cant move cant speak like i got you stunned
Come slid that mouth on my dick stroke gulp even spit
Slurp and swallow yes ill never forget the way you did it
Tell your friends I'm a freak once we all alone and tell them i go so hard
Digging in that pussy deep going raw dog in the backseat of the car
Throw it back take it nah shake it girl bake it
Leading to the final finale that big eruption
Yeh i chose the right name for you my Ms Seduction
Gripping your hair screaming my name
Yeh I got you bitched out and I'm the only one to blame
You older then me yet I'm giving you something new
Turning you out only for me can it be true, You calling me boo?
Giving you enough to stimulate your mind
Until we're together cause you know there'll be a next time----

06.07.12 --- Sweet Tea...

The day is ending with the sun setting
And I must say meeting this woman is a blessing
Life in turmoil slowly getting brighter
She's making me fall hard slowly taking me higher
And everything seems perfect whenever we're together
This is the type of woman you want to love forever
Feeling like I'm in eternal bliss
And to think all of this started with a single kiss
I pulled her close calmed down her emotions
Now we're sitting in the car looking at the ocean
Sunset in the background taking pictures
Never will I hurt her I'd never hit her
Except those hard thrusts when we're in the sheets
Bodies connecting rising and falling to the beat
The sparks are instant sometimes overwhelming
Not to be nasty but I love it when that pussy swelling
Kissing me on my neck as I fondle her sacred parts
This isn't a connection between two people but of two hearts
Get rid of all her doubts all her insecurities
And she'll do anything and everything never trying to get rid of me
Trying to see her everyday
Loving her in every type of way
Never want her to go wanting to beg her to stay
Got me caught up staring when her body sways
Dancing to this music my blood starts pumping
Only a matter of time before we getting down humping
Bumping and grinding energy flow crazy
Gasping moaning calling her baby
Hold me close hold me dear
Let go of your heart is what I want to hear
Give me all of her no regrets surrender completely
This isn't no Miguel no Quickies or Hickies
Let me bring it back
Kind of getting off track
I just want to let her know that she is not alone
If she's down come with me to start building a loving home
Know I'll always be here good days or bad
I never want to hurt her purposely make her cry or be sad
Keep arguements to a minimal
Another level our loves going digital
Xoxo shes the client and I'm the host entertainer
Yeh I'm going to put my name on it I'm going to brand her
Angels now and forever more
Heart's beating faster once she walks out that door
Man shes got me open hearts exposed
And I'm stuck thinking why I was wasting my time with these hoes
Shes got everything I've ever wanted everything I need
Who knows years from now I could be on that one knee
For real this time not like the last one let it be true
No more confessions no secrets between me and you
She knows who she is probably smiling while reading this
Dame un beso seal this writing with a kiss
Taking me to heaven you'll be my earth bound rapture
Thanking God for giving me her and starting this new chapter
Of my life, Thinking my heart was dying now becoming brand new
To think all I needed was her who ever knew
I hate this part right here ink running out the pen
Until next time you'll hear more then
Moment of silence for those girls who missed out on something good
Because now I met my woman who can do what they never could---- Gotta Love It

06.07.11 --- This Woman LOL...

Shes saying I can't handle her, Marking down on the calender
The next time that we meet up
Because yes I want to love her
Fantasizing when I want to
Shes got that good good
And at times she's so hood
I love the way she moves
How she looks and how she grooves
Moving her body like a dancer
Making me want to romance her
Oh so bootylicious
Devouring me in kisses
Man its oh so crazy
Shes my rock-a-bye baby
She tells me how she wants it
Back shots going at it
And shes a dime buck ten
And shell be my ride or die bitch to the end
Beautiful eyes wonderful smile
It was nice knowing her though it was only for awhile
But shell be back because what I can give is real
Way more then some late night smash she already knows the deal
Picking her up in the whip night out on the town
And when we fucking her moans of pleasure are the only sound
Calling my name saying its all mine
From eight at night to nine--
In the morning, waking up to her in my arms
Appreciation so strong I'd never cause her harm
Loving woman sexy lady
And she quarterback it to me like Tom Brady
Only a short time we've been together
Yet the memories will last forever
Sucking me good pulling back her hair so hot
And shes right there at the door when I pull up to her spot
I'm going to make her say she loves me
Taking my time to please that body I'm the only dude she wants to see
I know what to do and she likes my style
Ride that dick baby I know you want to see me smile
Temptation shining Temperatures rising
Making my eyes roll back my dude I'm not lying
Body twirling juices flowing
And I'll be licking and she'll be blowing
Slurping it all up and she'll be deep throating
Getting it untill its hurting
She's all my motivation
I'm the best when it comes to persuasion----so stupid lol

03.11.12 --- Long Gone...

Im right here standing looking for you
Yet your miles away though your laying right next to me
Your mouth says you love me yet the words hold emptiness
I don't know about us anymore
And I don't know what to do
The thing about the facts is that you're no longer with me
Physically you're here but ur mind and heart is somewhere else
Somebody help me somebody show me
How to restore our love and the hole in her heart
Am I enough? Together can we overcome?
Or am I just holding on to false hope?
Long gone and inside I'm raging
Where did I go wrong? Were there any signs?
Everything was looking up and out of nowhere it all went down
How is it a day with you is just another day?
Is it okay to feel this way, If I say I love you You say it right back
But I don't believe I don't feel anything towards you
Words are just words no actions your body language says otherwise
I forgot how to love you, I forgot how to touch you
Everybody looking from the outside in Why are they in our business?
Shaking my head looking side to side but no ones here to be by my side
Ugh Just got to move on.. "I used to love you
You used to love me babe, But now it just feels strange in your heart"-----

( "" = The Dream - Long Gone)

03.03.12 --- Together....

Just a moment of your time to explain whats on my mind
Let me tell you about a girl whose heart is filled with pure intentions and so kind
This girl is my wife
and the love of my life
Yeah we have our struggles but nobody compares to her
Running my fingers through her hair while she sleeps
Watching her dress infront of the mirror yeah you know I gotta peek
Skin so smooth smile so bright
Im about to get a little corny but I swear she is my light
Damn look what you've done to me
Got me trippin over my own feet and everyone can see
That I got it going on for you and everything you do
Who ever knew after we first met that you would be my boo
My boo thang my little strip tease
And If you ever think I'll dip on you baby girl please
I got you for life and you got me going crazy over you
Lay down with me and we'll multiply by twos
These sheets these ties this connection you blowing me the right way
I got to go to work soon but I wish I could stay
Never want to leave never want to go
I got 20 minutes left let me put on a show
That'll have you crying when I walk through that door
Make you truly believe you found something real nothing like before
Come here baby I'm you man
And I'm doing everything in my power to make you understand
That I'm the right here right now and forever more
So baby lets cut the bull we already have the perfect score----

03.01.12 --- Turn of Events...

It sucks I admit
That I never thought you would be the one to submit
To a moment of weakness and even consider doing what you did
Saying why do you bother coming home to your husband and your kid?
God knows how you would reacted if you looked through my phone
And saw everything I wrote how wrecked it would be this home
Just because of some bills and anger you would consider cheating
If I said what you wrote my ass would have been handed a beating
My chest still hurting
My flame slowly burning
Getting smaller every passing second my spirits feeling heavy
But I guess I should shut up because nothing was done
It all stopped after all it would have just been a temporary fun
That would have destroyed everything
You would have went on your way and just lived your life
While your son would have a demolished home and I a missing wife
Adultery, you must have known when you continued with the conversation
Something told me to go through that phone was it premonition?
I lost your trust when I cheated...
But yet you turn it around to me and once again I stand defeated..
Is it all my fault just because I didn't listen
I want to be settled with you no more steady fishing
I forgive you I do but I'm truly hurt by your actions
I just hope I'm not a fool and end up in backlashing.....

02.27.12 --- Will I Make It?...

I just want to make it in this world
I try everything I can but you'll never understand
Everything I have now i built it with my own two hands
They say practice makes perfect
But after constant failures when I finally get there will it be worth it?
One day in the not so distant future I will accomplish what I seek
But all these trials and errors day after day week after week
It gets a little tense and the pressure seems too much
And my wife isn't here to grace me with her touch--
Of knowledge that lifts me whenever I'm feeling blue
Tell me how to help myself or direct me to a person who'll
Guide me, lead me teach me everything I need to know
You want to see my pain my face has plenty to show
Look into my eyes and see the heartache the torture the pain
I truly hope all my work and all my efforts won't be in vain----

02.27.12 --- Let Me Down...



No matter what I do you'll never be there for me
Throughout all my pain and suffering you never reached out
Talking for hours on the phone listening to your problems like a true friend
Giving advice and giving an listening ear
Yet the next day no thanks no recognition nothing
I always saw you to be the one who'll lift my spirits
Not be the one who'll let me down
Hoping you would come around giving you chances
Yet you would never come through
Never call me never reach out your hand
Falling falling hands reach up but no one is there
Betrayed and feelings of despair why did I choose you
You aren't a friend just another attention seeker
Taking everything never giving just want to feel wanted and adored
Well you have 400 other friends supposedly let them catch you next time
I'm walking away have you crawling in the mud
Like you've done to me times and times before
Let it all break let it all fall
Let you stare in shock while everything around you slowly crumbles
Till you see the impact I had on your life
Till you realize I wasn't just some stepping stone to help you get farther
But that pebble that help together your whole foundation
Remove that pebble and everything comes crashing down
Let this be my thanks for having a wonderful friend like you ----

02.25.12 --- Lying Dormant...



Faithful Husband Loving Father
It seems like nothing in this world can become a bother
Though his only enemy is himself alter-ego
This other side of him that he just can't let go
L we'll call him who wants to cheat wants to have fun
The one who everytime theres a fight he wants to run
Run away from the problems and wants to live his own life
No cares in the world nobody on his mind not even his wife
Spend that money talk to whoever
Too easily swayed by the world drifting high light as a feather
Temptation in all its meaning he seduces himself to do wrong
No matter how hard he tries it just seems like it won't be long
Until L is uncaged unleashed to wreck havoc to wreck his own home
The one who wants to say fuck it and is always looking twice at the phone
To pick it up and call an ex past lover and tear it all down
Everything he has built chaos all around
Till there is only silence and then he will lay dormant once more
So he can see what he has done no more sunny days now it just pours
L will laugh and smile when tears fill his eyes
"You knew this would happen don't act so surprised"
Just one of many demons that slumbers inside of him well he ever be free?
Or will he be consumed slowly dying like leaves falling from the trees
Slowly becoming rotten from the inside out
Confusion and hatred running through his mind trying to understand what it's all about
Why he has this other side why will he be his own demise?
He's made it this far by not being unwise
He knows only he has the power to stop this capsize
He knows his own power and everything that applies
If he lets it go loses his common sense
It sometimes becomes unbearable the feeling becomes so intense
Cradle position lying on the floor
Too much he has going on everythings perfect, No he won't lose everything he adores
Standing up looking at himself in the mirror
He can't do this by himself so he looks to his wife to be his anchor
Hold him down be his peace of mind
The foundation the monument of light she'll never leave him behind
Make him stronger help him heal
Stay by his side and help him survive this ordeal
Show him he's so much more then his past
That with you by his side you know everything you've created will last
Tell him you have faith in him that he rid himself of this demon
Guide him towards the light the truth let yourself be his beacon-----

02.23.12 --- Cigarette Smoke...



Smoke lifting passions flowing
Lighter flicking flames glowing
Just a breeze is all it takes, just like all we need is a beat
To change its direction as we change positions
Blowing it up blowing it down as we explore each others bodies
Inhale exhale girl catch your breath
Going to hard has you feeling light-headed
Suck it all in gently burning in your chest
Your body is to me what menthol is to most, nothing can compare
Chain smoking, Back breaking hour after hour
Knowing it's no good for you but yet you're addicted
Nicotine fix get this protein shake warming your body
Make a design wisping through the air with your finger
Smoke swirling and swirling mind seeing colors
Too much got you the shakes body trembling at the touch of my finger tips
Cigarette half way through clip it no need to exhaust it all
Save some for later whenever you need some more

You see cigarette smoke and sex are one in the same
Fornication seems as beautiful as the smoke drifting away has you caught in a daze
Both are wrong yet we feel no need to stop
Both are free to wander and is produced by whomever uses
Pleasure given to whoever is in need for it -----

02.16.12 --- So Proud...

Let me tell you about this girl a friend
Who had everything going for her till the very end
Strong willed strong minded
Who thought relationships werent for her and love she would never find it
Then boy meets girl and everything felt so right
Thought never to falter not even a fight
Till one day when it came to make the next step up but he wasnt ready
And she tried everything to make it work and keep it steady
But now hes in the past and she has to keep it going
Hearts telling her it doesn't feel right and her mind keeps zoning---out
Trying to rationalize the situation and let her know what else can she do?
She has all the traits to be a great mother , a lover and a supportive wife
She will come through to a new beginning a new chapter in her life
She went about everything in the right way I wouldn't change a thing
Stay strong I'm here for you let me help you soothe that vicious sting
From heartbreak
You always risk it when you put your heart at stake
To always be the grown one it must become hard
But to bring you a smile now I'm your traveling bard
Telling your stories of trials and conquests
And the reason why? Because of you I'm so proud
Everything you've accomplished and never let the Devil destroy you
Let God take over and He'll make a way for you to rid yourself of the filth of sin
To guide you to lead you when you cannot do so youself
 You Got This ^.^ <3 (>^.^)><(^.^<)

02.15.12 --- Mind of the Generation...

You see the little girl just 16 of age
You're 25 and you're going to make a pass
Not keeping in mind that this is someones daughter
Someones future mother, someones heart
No you're doing it for your own devious plans
Tainted meets innocence and you want to rob her of it
She's too young to understand the games youre playing with her mind
She thinks you love her that youll always be there for her
Not knowing you only want her to satisfy your hunger your body your flesh
Calling her baby yet talking smack behind her back
You use her to fill any holes you have within yourself
Look into her eyes when she cries when she finally realizes
Heartbroken and abused at your mercy
As her elder she stood next to you looked up to you
To protect her to guide her yet you led her astray
16 and pregnant now and you're nowhere to be found
She thinks everything over and over everything you said
Lies deception shes destroyed
She looks out the window unwilling not ready for her responsibilities in hand
The razor touches her wrist and a single tear rolls down her cheek
Blood drips on the floor trickling down her fingers
Why little boy no man in my eyes Did you let her down?

02.09.12 --- Right Here Right Now



Water ripples as the rock splashes in
Gentle breeze caressing my cheeks brushing my nose
Looking over the horizon trying to figure out what I'm doing
Where I'm going and if someone is coming with me
I gaze at this world with an open mind
But yet I try to be humble as a child
To understand why things are the way they are
Poverty crime disease genocide
So much Evil in this world yet I found peace right here right now
By the water front as the sun bears down and the sea gulls fly high
I look behind me knowing its a mistake
All that floods my mind is whats going on out there in the shadows the places that hide from the light
I have to remain focused or else I'll get lost - lost along with the rest of the carnal flesh
I know only a few understand and have reason like I do
So many if they heard this would laugh or say I'm crazy
But the things I've commited in this flesh, sins I dare not repeat
I look forward again and watch the ducks trail behind each other
Much like my family, The supporter and protector in the front
And the loved ones in back, it will sacrifice it's own life to save those which it loves
Much like myself,
My lips want to curse, my mind filled with guilt and greed
Why does a heart like mine have to be in such a tainted body
Wishing to be cleansed that simply jumping in this bay will rid me of this filth
But the flowers... flowers blooming despite the garbage laying at it's feet
Does this mean I too can become something beautiful out of this turmoil?
I stand up and turn around ready to face this world head on
No longer will I be subdued by my own flesh but I'll follow my heart
The one thing that I know will always lead me straight never astray......

02.09.12 --- Rocky Road....

Rocky road bumpy ride
Come here girl let me express my other side.
Passionate kisses perfect timing
Body language steady rythming
Grabbing hair smacking ass
and now that you're here I'm going to make it last.
Hours flying by fatigue setting in,
and this right here is the sweetest sin
Gentle licks going down
And our moans and gasps are the only sound
Filling the room, I'm feeling on you
Lets make this go for an hour or two
Yeah I know I'm crazy yeah I want to bone
But this can't be wrong In our bed in our home
I would say more but I'm about to put in work
And I'll try my best not to make it hurt =D