Thursday, September 22, 2011

09.22.11 --- If Only...




If only you understood how I felt inside
If only you knew how to bring my feelings to light
If only you knew all the times I didn't want to fight
Creepin out at night to do my own thing things I don't really want to do
Just want to talk to someone and it's sad cause I can't turn to you
Everytime I say something you get mad cause it's not what you want to hear
So I keep everything inside because it's all I can do, can you tell me why?
It's like after everythings said and done you'd rather say bye then hi
How these other girls are starting to look good it shouldn't be like this
What happened to those nights of eternal bliss
Where it was only me and you now I want to move on to another
I thought forever and always we'll have each other
Nights in the bed making love getting down and dirty
But now theres none of that only both of us hurting
If only you can feel how I love you
Chipping at both our hearts its a matter of time before they fall apart
If only I could turn back these hands of time and get it right from the start
I have posion running through my system
Tell my emotions and my feelings towards you I'll miss em
If only you let me be a man and do what I want to do here and there
Instead of telling me no controling me with that stone cold stare
Why do you just sit down and tell me what a waste I am, Cause I'm always to blame
Mistakes I made, the things I've said sometimes I feel this is all a game
In this relationship of two I feel I'm walking alone
Footsteps in the sand 5 ft back This place is not a home
If only you could put your pride aside and trust me for just a second
Maybe we wouldn't be in this situation thats becoming hectic
Inside I want to scream Outside I want something to hit
So I leave and smoke a cigarette just to calm down a little bit
If only you realized I really wanted to be here for you
All these things I can't tell you, Such a shame... If only you Knew...

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