09.25.11 --- So High...

Sour D's got me lifted I'm soaring so high

Here you come into the scene in your cute little outfit looking so fly

Damn I want to hit especially with the way I'm feeling

Show me what you bringing to the table give me that sexual healing

Pop it for me drop it down show me the deal

And you looking at me like you want it so maybe you will

Is this the L making all this happen? It seems so real

I'm going to whisper in your ear - got to let you know it's your heart I'm trying to steal

Bring that body closer tell me you feel the same

Tell me how bad you want me and then say my name --

in that sexy tone let me know whats really good

Yeah I know you bad yet sweet show me whats really hood

Give me that ghetto love back it up on me

twine it grind it slide it up on me

Ain't no way you're not going to love me, cause now I'm going to shine

Take it downtown on you I'm put my mark on you to let you know you're mine

Come with me baby I'll take you to the rendezvous

Get everything hot and heavy down to a slight cruise

Slow strokes making your body tremble

And I'm taking my time I'm trying my best to be humble

We can do anything you want to do take a moment to realize
that we can do anything that it is that you fantasize

Sour D's got me tripping

You're body I'm flipping

Into different positions

Take a break These daiquiri's we sipping

Dang my high coming down where the Joint at?

Lets take a couple more hits now where were we at?

Oh yeah, *clears throat* now bounce up on me take me for a ride

Kevin Little- Turn me on --- Bring everything out got nothing left to hide

Make me moan

make me gasp

make me bust

make me groan

Be as loud as you want cause we're all alone

Sweat beating down your body yeh you put in work

Now bend over back in to it for a little it might hurt

Loosen up a bit before I go all in

This just like the olympics I'm in it to win

And just before we climax I snap back- you walk in through the door

"Hey Angel", you say- dang I must of zoned out looking foolish laying on the floor

I chuckle hey whats going on- Thinking If only I wasn't so high

That I would of realized that all that was just a lie

Lets put this blunt down I'm good for now I look at her and just *sigh*--

09.22.11 --- Mind Of A Crazed Man...

Run from me before this monster emerges

Darkness surrounds me and I get lost in my anger

All I see is red, everyone is my enemy

They have to be destroyed have to be torn apart

So they'll never hurt me again

I have to survive I have to live

So they must fall down on the ground in their own blood

I scream I scream deafening to the ear

Energy surging through my body

Heart pounding adrenline running

I have to smash something something has to break

I'm confused why am I doing this

Anger took over I'm no longer thinking reasonably

Forget it I'll embrace it

Get away stay away take back everything you did and said

Bed sheets stained red

Get beat get cut get tossed to the wall

You've pushed me too far and now you're scared

I tried to warn you I told you many times

Now stare at the monster you created it might be the last thing you see

Please stop I'm sorry- words sound foreign to my ears
Where were these words before? nowhere cause you didnt care

You said whatever and didn't think there'll be any consequences?

Now it's set free this demon I've unleashed

Come on come at me Fight to your last breath

Because I'm coming at you with this blade with evil intentions

See the tip shine as I raise it in the moonlight

Body trembling blade comes down your feet go numb

Now feel your blood warm you as it drips drips drips

Oh my God what have I done....

I hear sirens in the background drawing ever closer

I take one look back and then I start to run...

09.22.11 --- My Baby Boy...

5 months old and you're the love of my life
Holding you in my arms having fun with you and my wife
I want you to know I'm going to do my best to be a dad
I'll work do what ever it takes to give you everything I never had
You gave me another reason to start living life
When I look at you everything goes away this heartache pain and strife
When you smile I smile baby boy I love you so
Even if you grow up to be a jerk I'll never let you go
You are my son a splitting image of myself
And I love your mom for all of her support and help
One day you'll understand all the sacrifice I've made for you
You'll understand how much I love we put in with everything we do
So many dirty diapers and baths and hugs and kisses
I hope I'm here throughout your life I don't want to miss anything
lets get off the poetry for a second son I love you
I care for you, Im devoted to you
I want the best for you and I hope you love me in return
Your 5 months today 5 years old the next and teenager before I know it
And I want you to know that through all that I'm here for you
I will never disown you or look down on you
I want you to surpass me and be a better man then I
Be a better father for your son and a better husband for that special lady
My baby boy I Love You So
And I'm writing this now so in any event of my demise you'll know

09.22.11 --- If Only...

If only you understood how I felt inside

If only you knew how to bring my feelings to light

If only you knew all the times I didn't want to fight

Creepin out at night to do my own thing things I don't really want to do

Just want to talk to someone and it's sad cause I can't turn to you

Everytime I say something you get mad cause it's not what you want to hear

So I keep everything inside because it's all I can do, can you tell me why?

It's like after everythings said and done you'd rather say bye then hi

How these other girls are starting to look good it shouldn't be like this

What happened to those nights of eternal bliss

Where it was only me and you now I want to move on to another

I thought forever and always we'll have each other

Nights in the bed making love getting down and dirty

But now theres none of that only both of us hurting

If only you can feel how I love you

Chipping at both our hearts its a matter of time before they fall apart

If only I could turn back these hands of time and get it right from the start

I have posion running through my system

Tell my emotions and my feelings towards you I'll miss em

If only you let me be a man and do what I want to do here and there

Instead of telling me no controling me with that stone cold stare

Why do you just sit down and tell me what a waste I am, Cause I'm always to blame

Mistakes I made, the things I've said sometimes I feel this is all a game

In this relationship of two I feel I'm walking alone

Footsteps in the sand 5 ft back This place is not a home

If only you could put your pride aside and trust me for just a second

Maybe we wouldn't be in this situation thats becoming hectic

Inside I want to scream Outside I want something to hit

So I leave and smoke a cigarette just to calm down a little bit

If only you realized I really wanted to be here for you

All these things I can't tell you, Such a shame... If only you Knew...