1.28.10 --- Trying Time...

Trying to get through this trying time
A many of things steady running through my mind
Thinking of a person I should have treated more kind
Instead of putting other things infront and leaving her behind
Sitting here thinking about you
Wondering how the hell I'm going to get through
Not being able to hear your voice over the phone
No longer are there dreams of us having a home
A place, a couple of kids, all our dreams come true
But I guess dreams die fast going out the door right behind you
Sad, upset, confused
Someone please tell me what am I going to do?

1.05.10 --- Thinking About Us...

Im going to be the best man I can be

Future days together exploring our chemistry

Crazy how things ended up this way

Hours on the phone never running out of things to say
Talking about anything and everything

Going out my mind to thing you were just a friend to me

One day one chance to flip it all around

Holding each other bodies entwining making those intimate sounds

You were talking to a few others but you chose me instead

I knew you liked me and my almond shaped head

Poking your sides making you fall off the couch

Thinking about our future babies marriage a house

First day together walking with my eyes open wide

And I know with you my feelings will never hide

Claiming like I said claiming that you can beat me

But when it comes to bed you can't see me

Amauter against a professional baby you know I'll hold you down

And you should know that through anything and everything I'll always be around

To love you support you always be there for you

Never lie never cheat my feelings will remain true

Looking in your eyes searching

Even in my dreams there you are lurking

Everything is simple as the way it's supposed to be

I want you to experience so many new things with me

When it comes to love I'm always running away booking

But the one was right infront of me when this whole time I was looking

No more holding back I'm going to tell you how I feel

I want to be with you make it work I will always be real---

1.03.10 --- New Start...

Two days after New years brand new year brand new day
I wonder if I talked to you now if I'll have anything to say
Too many nights reminiscing bout words past said
Memories going back to when you first laid in my bed
Simple message on myspace saying you won't be mad at me this year doubt running through my head
There was no reason to be mad should have forgave me a long time ago instead
Not trying to complicate trying let things go
You know I still had feelings for you I always tried to show
I hear you got a man and he treating you good
At least someone's being a man and treating you like I should-
have way before, but I'm glad you're not mad don't no if you think of me as a friend
Maybe this message was a beginning of a end
To wipe our slate clean officially starting over new
You moved on I moved on no more nights feeling blue
I think of you and smile seeing how you turned out
Wondering how you are now are you different I no longer know what you're about
Simple poem simply thanking you for helping me grow
I no longer do those stupid things I used to do before
I'm a growing young man wih big plans on the horizon toughing it out on my own
I hope with this poem my respect for you is shown
Maybe another place another time we can see each other and have a laugh
smiles no fighting no feeling a certain way since you already have your better half
I'm better now and a little relieved
To hear from you after so long from this message I have recieved
The first love of my life and no one will ever compare
So much love and respect for you I have to share
Time for this to stop time for this to end
I hope we can continue to talk and wind up being good friends---