10.28.10--- Inspiration...

Thinking of a place far from here, flourished and green
Flowers blooming, trees swaying the most beautiful thing you've ever seen
It represents my life just thinking it can't get any better
Through the good times the bad through the ever changing weather
Stormy skies and sunny days
Today and right now I want you to stay
For without you my world will be barren a sulken wasteland
My snowcap mountains crumble to just grains of sand
Watching as my rivers of life dry up and crack
Leaving me wondering if you'll ever find your way back
So I turn my heart to God with my faith I will believe
To give me strength to make it through times unforeseen
Kind of like right now when you aren't around
Facing reality falling off my cloud feeling so earth bound
But I have this feeling this sense of knowing
That you'll make it back to me and it's really showing
God made you for me, to end my pain
To help me find the lord and free me from these sinful stains
It is written,"strength and honour are her clothing and she shall rejoice in time to come"
And i feel that our time together has only just begun
If only you'd let go of the sins of my past
Then you'll know that we were truly meant to last----

8.24.10 --- T 2 A...

Back in the day when to you i couldnt say a word
thinking of things that i know you shoulda heard
my cuzzins right hand girl you were already taken
Even talking to you now all the rules i have been breakin
But since i took that chance and decided to talk to you
i havent regretted this start of this friendship sumthing new
From all the getting to kno you's to the freaky things that are said
all them stories bout how we both are in the bed
i like to lick and you like to ride
you seem like you that true ride or die
it may be true that ur taken by another
but that has nuffin to do with us each other
Boyfriend number 2 3 4 it dont matter
All i care is that together we climb this Ladder
Me making you happy seeing you smile
Gonna be good to see you again you know its been awhile
Believe My words for they are always true
and here is that poem that i have written for you----

5.26.10 --- UnThinkAble...

Now baby when i tell you I'm ready I'm ready
We've been doing everything right going slow and steady
Aint having no doubts I'm not having no remorse
Enjoying your company and our love is the source
How our relationship is growing strong growing by the day
I was wondering baby If we had ourselves a baby what would you say?
Would you want to see her father in her eyes
Would it come as a surprise?
When I hold that baby in my loving arms showing so much affection
Been through so many females quickly going down the selection
And forever and longer I shall choose you
Aint no one and nothing going to come between me and you
So look me in my eyes and tell me what I want to hear
That you love me and you'll always be here
Through our love and connection anything is possible
All rivers can be crossed all mountains conquered nothing is impossible
You can't ignore this feeling
Its time to begin the healing
Of the broken heart, The stressed mind
Cause from this day on you will always remain mine
Waiting for five years down the line when you want me to pop the question
And hope you say I Do
Cause from day in to day out all I think about is you.....

5.18.10 --- Already Taken...

Late night love sessions,
Those secret bedroom confessions
I'm sorry ladies but I'm onto something new
No more hook-ups to make love everything is simply through
Cause I'm taken by another
And to tell the truth we really feeling each other
My Light-skinned love that can't be expressed in words
Time to forget about them past short-term girls and them byrdz
Because what she has to offer is something they can't provide
With her my feelings my emotions are shown From her is nothing to hide
I give her my all
refusing to let this relationship fall
We fight it out to make it through, running to a slow crawl
For all my female lovers everything we had is stalled
You offer your body, she offers me a life-time of love
Really now which one would you choose?
Don't say I broke your heart, your ego is just bruised
Ya'll know nothing about love, nothing about emotion
Nothing about just sitting together out there by the ocean
Enjoying each others time looking into each others eyes
She opens up my mind to new possibilities I'm amazed I'm surprised
Now you want me to stay in your life but I'm already taken
Losing you and so many others is what I'm staking
To have only her in my life, all you gave me was a bedroom high
What she gave me was that rollercoaster ride to the sky
of love..
blissful nights
Bodies glowing in the candlelights
We used to have them delicate kisses when saying hi
Now I just want to avoid the sentimental good-byes
No phone calls
No contact of any sort at all
Cause I'm fine where I'm at
I'm happy with my girl so lets just leave it at that
My and her body entwines becoming one
I'm lifted, I'm trully blessed and hell yeah I'm sprung
You had your chance but now that chance is gone
These memories will be forgotten soon, nothing left to say but so long
(girl) but can't we jsut work it out (me) nah sorry I'm already taken
(girl) But I want you (me) like I said I'm already taken...

4.18.10 --- Heavenly High...

Gentle strokes...

Skin caressing...

Gripping Sheets, this that heavenly high blessing

Whispering in your ear,

Everything you want to hear

Ride me like I taught you

Hitting your every spot 'Cause i know you

Every curve, every angle, explored in an explosion of intimacy

Time for you to turn around and face me

Look me in my eyes as I push in deeper

Holding me tightly yea you know I'm a keeper

Ben aqui mamii take this loving now

No music accapella let our love-making be the only sound

Like dancing with the stars every motion in perfect harmony

And when you say my name repeatedly it's like a song to me

Mattress rocking, headboards knockin

minutes turn to hours with the clock slowly tick tocking

Holding your sides setting the pace oh this is the sweetest sin

Climax upcoming but we fight it not wanting to let the other win

Keep going baby take all of me work that body motion

Hair pulling back scratching pelvic thrusting

Let me slow this down no need for this rushing

Mamii got the body of an exotic dancer

Right here right now, time for me to romance her

Pull an all nighter tell me you're here to stay

But for right now lets continue giving pleasure letting the time slip away...

2.15.10 --- Lost In The World...

*Too many people wondering what I'm doing

But they need to concentrate on what they doing*

I'm crawling struggling feeling so low bound in this flesh

That experiences pain hardship and problems

Wish i had the solution a certain way to solve them

Letting anger envelope me exploding on the ones who care

My girl stands by my side but my love i refuse to share

So cold and alone lost in this world of sorrow

Asking people if they got a couple of dollars I could borrow

Need to eat need to fill my gas tank up I'm hitting the road

Heading away from this people this environment everything I've ever known

This justice system got me doing five years

But to them I won't give the gratification to see my tears

I refuse to be down refuse to give in

Cause this is my life so I'm in it to win

Destroyed what I could've been

Got people looking at me like I'm drenched in sin

Wish my life shine like the glistening of my chain

Before if you had a problem with me yea sure we could've bang

But I'm tired of all this strain

Tired of my heart being filled with pain

So I put up my walls

Made a promise that to no one I'll let them fall

Kept everything held in and yea its the truth

Even lying to the pastor in the church booth

All I want is a little privacy a little happiness in my life

Instead I'm filled with dread and nineteen years of strife

I want it all to go boom boom boom and blow it all away

And through it all the ashes and smoke i see my baby left to stay

Got a few pulling for me and yes you are appreciated

But it feels as if my soul is being chopped up decapitated

Wish I hadthe will to let me feeings show

But it's kind of hard when my self esteem is so low

Trying to be lifted

Looking for that one person to make me feel gifted

As if I've truly been blessed

If I can have it let me know I won't settle for less

Trying to cope with this thing called life but what if I'm gone

What will be left behind what legacy maybe my poems and this song

Crying on the inside

Letting it be known that I'm dying on the outside

Inhaling this posion cruising through my veins steady running through my system

Let my mother father my family know I'm surely going to miss them

Too many people I've let down doesn't feel to good to know its true

So what would you think if I was reading this piece to you

Would you care feel pity or brush me aside

Would you hide that hurt feeling that you feel inside

Right now I don't kno who to trust

In this world filled with heartache and lust

False emotions

Only place I can get away is staring at this water of the ocean

Feeling the breeze coming from the sea

I guess the only person I can count on is me

Lost in this world of scorn

Got me feeling so small like a infant newborn

No one understands where I'm coming from Don't understand my pain

This struggle it is just to go about my day

Trying to keep my head up stand up and walk tall

There are certain moments where I don't want to talk at all

Just want to break down and cry cry cry

But I'd rather be alive then looking forward to die die die

I'm left bleeding in the street staring up at the sky

And no one notices they just be passing me by

Look me in my eyes

I bet you'll be surprised

To see I'm filled with life yet and so much potential in me

At times I feel like I'm on a whole other world these people can't see me

So I'm going to say this one time

Don't you dare try to judge me or compare your life to mine...

2.09.10 --- My Only...

What we share here is a spiritual connection

And when we making love its a righteous affection

Over here feeling like I've been born again

When I was down you came along and pulled me back up like a true friend

Holding you in my arms everything feeling so right

Cuddling with you under the sheets in the bed at night

I got to say you the perfect person for me

I hope all of these feelings you can see

Every little thing we do I cherish every single moment

This love you show me I'll never condone

Just a little something to tease your mind

You already know you're one of a kind

Anything you ask of me I'll do

I'd rather have no one else in my life other then you--

2.06.10 --- Pure...

New emotions new strings tied new faces

I hope my time with you won't end up being wasted

Touching your face in a passionate way

Words in my mind figuring out what to say

Caught in your love dazed by its blow

When we get together our feelings truly show

Not bound by jealously or greed

Cause we still have our emotions to feed

Grow healthier bigger stronger

Its like an unquenchable thirst unsatisfiable hunger

Look into my eyes and tell me what you see

You should know by now you should remain here with me

To you I'm your sweet honey To me your simply my baby

Trying to keep it simple but later complex maybe

As those trying times come through but in the end we shall shine

Knowing all awhile you will always be mine

You said you see me as a great man

Well come on girl and stand by me and hold my hand

As I take you to a land of sweet desire

Gentle lovemaking our bodies glowing like the flame from a fire

Always something delicate sensual and pure

I'm telling you right now I'll always remain yours---

1.28.10 --- Trying Time...

Trying to get through this trying time
A many of things steady running through my mind
Thinking of a person I should have treated more kind
Instead of putting other things infront and leaving her behind
Sitting here thinking about you
Wondering how the hell I'm going to get through
Not being able to hear your voice over the phone
No longer are there dreams of us having a home
A place, a couple of kids, all our dreams come true
But I guess dreams die fast going out the door right behind you
Sad, upset, confused
Someone please tell me what am I going to do?

1.05.10 --- Thinking About Us...

Im going to be the best man I can be

Future days together exploring our chemistry

Crazy how things ended up this way

Hours on the phone never running out of things to say
Talking about anything and everything

Going out my mind to thing you were just a friend to me

One day one chance to flip it all around

Holding each other bodies entwining making those intimate sounds

You were talking to a few others but you chose me instead

I knew you liked me and my almond shaped head

Poking your sides making you fall off the couch

Thinking about our future babies marriage a house

First day together walking with my eyes open wide

And I know with you my feelings will never hide

Claiming like I said claiming that you can beat me

But when it comes to bed you can't see me

Amauter against a professional baby you know I'll hold you down

And you should know that through anything and everything I'll always be around

To love you support you always be there for you

Never lie never cheat my feelings will remain true

Looking in your eyes searching

Even in my dreams there you are lurking

Everything is simple as the way it's supposed to be

I want you to experience so many new things with me

When it comes to love I'm always running away booking

But the one was right infront of me when this whole time I was looking

No more holding back I'm going to tell you how I feel

I want to be with you make it work I will always be real---

1.03.10 --- New Start...

Two days after New years brand new year brand new day
I wonder if I talked to you now if I'll have anything to say
Too many nights reminiscing bout words past said
Memories going back to when you first laid in my bed
Simple message on myspace saying you won't be mad at me this year doubt running through my head
There was no reason to be mad should have forgave me a long time ago instead
Not trying to complicate trying let things go
You know I still had feelings for you I always tried to show
I hear you got a man and he treating you good
At least someone's being a man and treating you like I should-
have way before, but I'm glad you're not mad don't no if you think of me as a friend
Maybe this message was a beginning of a end
To wipe our slate clean officially starting over new
You moved on I moved on no more nights feeling blue
I think of you and smile seeing how you turned out
Wondering how you are now are you different I no longer know what you're about
Simple poem simply thanking you for helping me grow
I no longer do those stupid things I used to do before
I'm a growing young man wih big plans on the horizon toughing it out on my own
I hope with this poem my respect for you is shown
Maybe another place another time we can see each other and have a laugh
smiles no fighting no feeling a certain way since you already have your better half
I'm better now and a little relieved
To hear from you after so long from this message I have recieved
The first love of my life and no one will ever compare
So much love and respect for you I have to share
Time for this to stop time for this to end
I hope we can continue to talk and wind up being good friends---