12.30.09 --- Off The Top Of My Head...

Looking at this sight of snow sitting outside on Christmas Day

Trying to explain how I feel about you in a very special way

Months passing by yet you're still here laying down with me

Wondering if you still like me if you did it'll be such a surprise to me

Females dropped leaving only you

I hope it means something such as I'm willing to be true

Cause you know me always running around

Then ghosting leaving not a trace not a voice not a sound

Watching a movie gently rubbing your stomach feeling your delicate skin

I'm not aiming for what's inbetween them thighs but your love I'm trying to win

Walking to the store through the snow with you to buy some arizona sweet tea

Not caring who we run into just me and you for everyone to see

This poem is not about the rythming

But instead what it's designing

What it's painting with its words not trying to make you scared

Instead of hearing you reading everything you should have heard

Four years history plus going on between us I wonder where we'll end

But I have to admit i feel Like you'll always be my friend

Slowly progressing Always suggesting

That maybe if you acted right this would truly be a blessing

Christmas day and you running through my mind

How could this be when I hardly ever treated you kind

Maybe it's the guilt maybe it's the shame

Maybe it's that seductive way you always say my name

And your body is like a bottle of bacardi always leaving me bent

And when we are making love it feels like heaven sent

Lifting us up higher passion running through our veins like a fire

Whispering in your ear baby tell me what you desire

Is it me is it my personality

Maybe your messing with me setting me up for the fatality

Leave me broken hearted trying to pick up the pieces left behind

But I doubt that cause I have yet to see a sign

You're here to stay and in my bed you shall lay

Always with me never against me never go away

Playing games you know we get it knucking

And you know how I do always backshots bucking

Yea I can be cocky I must admit that

If you take it as disrespect then tell me how to act

Do I own you do you own me?

Talk for a little let me know how it should be

45,69, yes those positions are fine

40, minus 2 modified switch to position 9

Yea you know I'm crazy but you know we do it all

Every time I lifted you up I never let you fall

Alright I'm getting a bit off topic lets cut to the chase you're mine

remember that, Hmmm maybe that's a sign

Let me think a little bit uh hmm

Hopefully that has nothing to do with our bedroom boom

Like the song by mario but we do our own thing

Whoops there I go again Please stop me now

Words coming out before thinking please tell me how-

Am I going on and on and still keeping the flow

Typing on the computer within the candlelights glow

Just think about everything we've ever done and said

These are just random things that come off the top of my head---

12.14.09 --- Wondering...

Days passing by got you stuck in my mind

To have that one true person infront of me how could I have been so blind

Feelings growing deeper tearing down my walls

I put my trust in you I hope you never let me fall

Every passionate kiss every delicate touch

Now I'm realizing I miss you so much

In the picture with another but I'm playing to win

Proving myself better everytime we embrace that sweet sin

You already know you belong with me

I know I play my games but I'm not here to decieve

Im going to make you believe that you the one I need

As when we get older I want you to be the one to have my seed

Half of me is you you've grown attached to me

Now-a-days you the only one I see

Making you float above the gentle waters With me you've been lifted

I know in this power of love his momentum has been shifted

Keep your eyes on me focus at the task at hand

Making this connection stronger No more waiting on that hourglass of sand

Days turned to months and months into years

Too many times I have seen rolling down your cheeks these tears

Started as strangers then friends what's next?

I hope as this progresses I'll never be known as the ex

With me it's different No arguing or fighting

And I know how you love it when we get to scratching and biting

Sexual yet sensual best of both worlds time to open up that door

You going to see a different side of me something you only got a glimpse of before

Let me make this simple and short let me make you understand

I'm right here asking you if we can make it work and for me to be your man---

12.08.09 --- Reciting Memory...

Thinking about a time back in the day

About you and for you I have a million words to say

With you I have nothing left to lose but nothing left to gain

But yet I still have these memories taunting me with pain

Since you're gone it's as if my abilites have been impaired

Gave so much love to you I wonder if I have any left to spare

Gave you love from the start but your love is past due

I had to leave because I'm not the one to play the fool

Impersonating the being I thought was the one true

Sitting on these cold steps wondering what the hell I'm going to do

Where do I go from here this single life seems so new

You were suppose to be the one the only that so called baby who--

Would give me everything I ever wanted and needed

Thinking it was all bout us now I'm feeling so heated

Because I know your love wasn't true wasn't real you weren't reliable

But I let you get the best of me 'cause your body is so damn desirable

So many nights just me and you laying in your bed

Now we're nothing I should have chose another instead

I tried to keep it going keep it flowing

But instead you was the one blowing-

Me off like I didn't even mean a thing

While I was over here lacing you with the gold the jewelry the bling

Its like that line you think this song is about you

But its not its bout me getting over you

Moving on doing good still doing the grown

I was lost before untill I spread my wings and flown

Bye little mami no more of these thoughts about you

I'm just reciting these memories so they know how you do

How you get down playing your games

When you did wrong you made me the one to blame

Finding excuses to leave and do these hurtful things to me

Then you come running back like you're sorry trying to decieve

But I know everything about you I know whats in your mind

I know that through it all I always remained kind

But now I'm done I'm through

I'm so glad to be finally getting over you

And now I got another

And just to let you know we all about each other

She's recieving my kisses recieving my love

Her name should be heaven cause she got me feeling like I'm high above

The clouds the planes the sun and the moon

But don't you worry girl you'll find another soon

Some boy who'll play your game and play along so swell

If karma comes around to you all I'm going to say is oh well

You reap what you sow I'll no longer be all ears

Why don't you drown your pains out with a couple of beers

Ha, like I used to do but not no more

Cause with me and my new girl I know whats in store

Something peaceful sensual and real

Just letting you know im better now I'm healed--

12.01.09 --- As The Days Grow Old...

As The Days Pass Me, As I Grow Old

I Have Yet To Tell This Story, This Story I Haven't Told

She Left... Now I Feel Like I Was Used p A Sold

Now I'm Just Longing For Someone To Hold

It's My 18th Birthday, Comes As A Shock To Me

That After Two Years She's Gone How Could This Be?

How Do i Get That Time Back, It's So Hard To See

Did I Mess Up That Bad For Her Not To Be With Me?

Now I'm Forced To Move On, I Can't Call This Place Home

Because When Ever I'm Here I Feel Sad And Alone

I'm Done Crying, You Never Listened To The Words I Said

Forgotten All Of Our Conversations In The Bed

I Feel So Wierd, Something I Never Felt Before

Because Now Who Am I Supposed To Live For?

Love Me For Who I Am, Not What I've Done

You Were The One I Wanted To Have My Son

I Must Be Stupid To Believe This Love Was True

But I Still Apologize For All The Lies I've Told You

So Now As My Voice Fades As I'm Done Telling This Story I Just Told

Now I Just Walk And Wonder... As The Days Grow Old---