02.27.12 --- Will I Make It?...

I just want to make it in this world
I try everything I can but you'll never understand
Everything I have now i built it with my own two hands
They say practice makes perfect
But after constant failures when I finally get there will it be worth it?
One day in the not so distant future I will accomplish what I seek
But all these trials and errors day after day week after week
It gets a little tense and the pressure seems too much
And my wife isn't here to grace me with her touch--
Of knowledge that lifts me whenever I'm feeling blue
Tell me how to help myself or direct me to a person who'll
Guide me, lead me teach me everything I need to know
You want to see my pain my face has plenty to show
Look into my eyes and see the heartache the torture the pain
I truly hope all my work and all my efforts won't be in vain----

02.27.12 --- Let Me Down...



No matter what I do you'll never be there for me
Throughout all my pain and suffering you never reached out
Talking for hours on the phone listening to your problems like a true friend
Giving advice and giving an listening ear
Yet the next day no thanks no recognition nothing
I always saw you to be the one who'll lift my spirits
Not be the one who'll let me down
Hoping you would come around giving you chances
Yet you would never come through
Never call me never reach out your hand
Falling falling hands reach up but no one is there
Betrayed and feelings of despair why did I choose you
You aren't a friend just another attention seeker
Taking everything never giving just want to feel wanted and adored
Well you have 400 other friends supposedly let them catch you next time
I'm walking away have you crawling in the mud
Like you've done to me times and times before
Let it all break let it all fall
Let you stare in shock while everything around you slowly crumbles
Till you see the impact I had on your life
Till you realize I wasn't just some stepping stone to help you get farther
But that pebble that help together your whole foundation
Remove that pebble and everything comes crashing down
Let this be my thanks for having a wonderful friend like you ----

02.25.12 --- Lying Dormant...



Faithful Husband Loving Father
It seems like nothing in this world can become a bother
Though his only enemy is himself alter-ego
This other side of him that he just can't let go
L we'll call him who wants to cheat wants to have fun
The one who everytime theres a fight he wants to run
Run away from the problems and wants to live his own life
No cares in the world nobody on his mind not even his wife
Spend that money talk to whoever
Too easily swayed by the world drifting high light as a feather
Temptation in all its meaning he seduces himself to do wrong
No matter how hard he tries it just seems like it won't be long
Until L is uncaged unleashed to wreck havoc to wreck his own home
The one who wants to say fuck it and is always looking twice at the phone
To pick it up and call an ex past lover and tear it all down
Everything he has built chaos all around
Till there is only silence and then he will lay dormant once more
So he can see what he has done no more sunny days now it just pours
L will laugh and smile when tears fill his eyes
"You knew this would happen don't act so surprised"
Just one of many demons that slumbers inside of him well he ever be free?
Or will he be consumed slowly dying like leaves falling from the trees
Slowly becoming rotten from the inside out
Confusion and hatred running through his mind trying to understand what it's all about
Why he has this other side why will he be his own demise?
He's made it this far by not being unwise
He knows only he has the power to stop this capsize
He knows his own power and everything that applies
If he lets it go loses his common sense
It sometimes becomes unbearable the feeling becomes so intense
Cradle position lying on the floor
Too much he has going on everythings perfect, No he won't lose everything he adores
Standing up looking at himself in the mirror
He can't do this by himself so he looks to his wife to be his anchor
Hold him down be his peace of mind
The foundation the monument of light she'll never leave him behind
Make him stronger help him heal
Stay by his side and help him survive this ordeal
Show him he's so much more then his past
That with you by his side you know everything you've created will last
Tell him you have faith in him that he rid himself of this demon
Guide him towards the light the truth let yourself be his beacon-----

02.23.12 --- Cigarette Smoke...



Smoke lifting passions flowing
Lighter flicking flames glowing
Just a breeze is all it takes, just like all we need is a beat
To change its direction as we change positions
Blowing it up blowing it down as we explore each others bodies
Inhale exhale girl catch your breath
Going to hard has you feeling light-headed
Suck it all in gently burning in your chest
Your body is to me what menthol is to most, nothing can compare
Chain smoking, Back breaking hour after hour
Knowing it's no good for you but yet you're addicted
Nicotine fix get this protein shake warming your body
Make a design wisping through the air with your finger
Smoke swirling and swirling mind seeing colors
Too much got you the shakes body trembling at the touch of my finger tips
Cigarette half way through clip it no need to exhaust it all
Save some for later whenever you need some more

You see cigarette smoke and sex are one in the same
Fornication seems as beautiful as the smoke drifting away has you caught in a daze
Both are wrong yet we feel no need to stop
Both are free to wander and is produced by whomever uses
Pleasure given to whoever is in need for it -----

02.16.12 --- So Proud...

Let me tell you about this girl a friend
Who had everything going for her till the very end
Strong willed strong minded
Who thought relationships werent for her and love she would never find it
Then boy meets girl and everything felt so right
Thought never to falter not even a fight
Till one day when it came to make the next step up but he wasnt ready
And she tried everything to make it work and keep it steady
But now hes in the past and she has to keep it going
Hearts telling her it doesn't feel right and her mind keeps zoning---out
Trying to rationalize the situation and let her know what else can she do?
She has all the traits to be a great mother , a lover and a supportive wife
She will come through to a new beginning a new chapter in her life
She went about everything in the right way I wouldn't change a thing
Stay strong I'm here for you let me help you soothe that vicious sting
From heartbreak
You always risk it when you put your heart at stake
To always be the grown one it must become hard
But to bring you a smile now I'm your traveling bard
Telling your stories of trials and conquests
And the reason why? Because of you I'm so proud
Everything you've accomplished and never let the Devil destroy you
Let God take over and He'll make a way for you to rid yourself of the filth of sin
To guide you to lead you when you cannot do so youself
 You Got This ^.^ <3 (>^.^)><(^.^<)

02.15.12 --- Mind of the Generation...

You see the little girl just 16 of age
You're 25 and you're going to make a pass
Not keeping in mind that this is someones daughter
Someones future mother, someones heart
No you're doing it for your own devious plans
Tainted meets innocence and you want to rob her of it
She's too young to understand the games youre playing with her mind
She thinks you love her that youll always be there for her
Not knowing you only want her to satisfy your hunger your body your flesh
Calling her baby yet talking smack behind her back
You use her to fill any holes you have within yourself
Look into her eyes when she cries when she finally realizes
Heartbroken and abused at your mercy
As her elder she stood next to you looked up to you
To protect her to guide her yet you led her astray
16 and pregnant now and you're nowhere to be found
She thinks everything over and over everything you said
Lies deception shes destroyed
She looks out the window unwilling not ready for her responsibilities in hand
The razor touches her wrist and a single tear rolls down her cheek
Blood drips on the floor trickling down her fingers
Why little boy no man in my eyes Did you let her down?

02.09.12 --- Right Here Right Now



Water ripples as the rock splashes in
Gentle breeze caressing my cheeks brushing my nose
Looking over the horizon trying to figure out what I'm doing
Where I'm going and if someone is coming with me
I gaze at this world with an open mind
But yet I try to be humble as a child
To understand why things are the way they are
Poverty crime disease genocide
So much Evil in this world yet I found peace right here right now
By the water front as the sun bears down and the sea gulls fly high
I look behind me knowing its a mistake
All that floods my mind is whats going on out there in the shadows the places that hide from the light
I have to remain focused or else I'll get lost - lost along with the rest of the carnal flesh
I know only a few understand and have reason like I do
So many if they heard this would laugh or say I'm crazy
But the things I've commited in this flesh, sins I dare not repeat
I look forward again and watch the ducks trail behind each other
Much like my family, The supporter and protector in the front
And the loved ones in back, it will sacrifice it's own life to save those which it loves
Much like myself,
My lips want to curse, my mind filled with guilt and greed
Why does a heart like mine have to be in such a tainted body
Wishing to be cleansed that simply jumping in this bay will rid me of this filth
But the flowers... flowers blooming despite the garbage laying at it's feet
Does this mean I too can become something beautiful out of this turmoil?
I stand up and turn around ready to face this world head on
No longer will I be subdued by my own flesh but I'll follow my heart
The one thing that I know will always lead me straight never astray......

02.09.12 --- Rocky Road....

Rocky road bumpy ride
Come here girl let me express my other side.
Passionate kisses perfect timing
Body language steady rythming
Grabbing hair smacking ass
and now that you're here I'm going to make it last.
Hours flying by fatigue setting in,
and this right here is the sweetest sin
Gentle licks going down
And our moans and gasps are the only sound
Filling the room, I'm feeling on you
Lets make this go for an hour or two
Yeah I know I'm crazy yeah I want to bone
But this can't be wrong In our bed in our home
I would say more but I'm about to put in work
And I'll try my best not to make it hurt =D